Bit of my Testimony

bit about me
Current mood: accomplished

a little of my testimony
Current mood: impressed
Category: Life

I grew up with My biological brother Paul in a sexually abusive home. My adopted mother was oblivious to the fact that my adopted father was sexually abusing me. It's things like this that make children grow up to be bitter and destroyed. BUT I overcame these things with a little help from a couple things... Number one being Jesus Christ.. My Lord and Saviour.. The true Father!!!! What a REAL Father should be, loving, protective, caring, there for me. I learned who God was not from my parents but from two AMAZING BANDS!!!! yes you guys all think I'm nuts or something. but it's absolutely true.. Music can do AMAZING THINGS FOR YOU... if you let it, so my second thing was music...I grew up on DC Talk... and I'm VERY THANKFUL for the words of wisdom that came from their lyrics/music, and from the things they said.and did. They were older and much wiser then me in the ways of Christianity and Christ!!! They taught me a lot about Being Bold about my beliefs and about who I am as a Christian and a woman of Christ!!! I wasn't being taught how to be a true Christian at home..i wasn't being taught much of anything at home... The second band that REALLY played a huge part in my life through all those times.. was "The Brothers" (now Family Force 5)... Not only were they around my age.. but they knew Christ.. they knew about the spiritual of Him and understood God in a level above what I did at the time....Their lyrics were very comforting to me.. and saved me from such pain and hurt that was happening around me. I am VERY much alive because of this band and those three guys... they don't know it yet. but.. they really did save my life..I would literally sit in my room and listen to both of these bands and rely on there lyrics to get me through what was happening to me on the inside..No one around me knew the heartache i was going through (some knew but blew it off) the things that were happening on the inside was REALLY eating away at my soul..I didn't want to live anymore I didn't want to be me anymore I never did, there is nothing wrong with taking a cd/tape putting it in your radio/stereo listening to it and having it heal you. They were positive influences in my life...I'm a stronger woman now because of how music has touched my life.. maybe that's why I'm so drawn to musicians.. and how important they are to the world.. They're going to change the world. and they already have in many ways. I could never ever turn my back on ma boyz.. that is exactly what they are to me..I grew up with them in a sense...so don't step!! Music continues to touch my soul and my life. I think if it weren't for God bringing the music into my life that he brought into my life. I truly believe I WOULD not be here. I don't hold these guys up above who Christ is. and I never could. but I AM very grateful that God lead me to them.. It is very rare that something touches your life so deeply.. that you can not erase the pain and struggles it got your through, to those that music has NOT touched as deeply as it has touched me.. could/ and won't ever understand what it's like to have a band or two like this. I truly WISH and PRAY that someday.. i will be able to BLESS Toby, Michael, Kevin, Josh, Solomon, and Jacob as much as they have blessed my life...THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart.




~CHRIS~

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